Masquerade

Hello my wonderful people!

I apologize for taking so long!

I have pretty much forgo-ed

the new year posting :)

one similar to it may come later :)

I frankly haven't been in a mood

to blog lately

or had anything that wonderful

to write about.

I am still dealing with some difficult things

in my life that are fresh on my mind always.

But I felt like I should share this one with you.

Kind of continuing with what my

"When The Time Comes" post said,

I found a new song that can put where

I find myself in perfect words.

Even as I write this,

I am listening to it

Over and Over again.

It's called Masquerade,

Sung by Seventh Day Slumber.

(my friend Charisse lent me this CD

and I have fallen in love with this song,

Thanks Charisse :))

but please listen to it.

Its not a popular song but it is wonderful.

here are the Lyrics:

"I don't know what to think about me anymore,

Cause I am still the same as always.

Here I am again, that same old broken man.

I can't make it on my own.

I need You.

Chorus:

And I am not afraid of anything anymore.

And I am not ashamed, the masquerade has ended.

And I will stand for You even if I lose it all.

Cause nothing really matters,

You are all that matters, Lord.

As messed up as I am, still You bring me in.

You take me in Your arms and hold me.

The worthlessness I feel, You make it disappear.

You are always there, You're endless.

(Chorus)

I don't know what to think about me anymore.

Cause I am still the same as always."

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(I have this song in one of my playlists...

thats the only way i can link it to here for you to hear it :))

Lately, I have uncovered a sort of inner monster.

I have realized that I believed

the indescribable worth I can find

In Christ alone,

was something i only believed in my Mind,

and not my heart.

I have let the words of people

penetrate my heart

or even the lack there of,

(kind of a

"if you don't have anything nice to say,don't say anything"

thing)

and it has become a poison.

it has affected how I react to people

and even how I react to compliments.

I have let it tear me down.

At this point,

I am looking to my Loving Savior

to make the change.

To help me find this worth in my Heart

To fight these years of bitter poison in my heart

and let Him reign.

I believe we all wear masks at times.

This is my preverbial "end to the Masquerade"

I admit that I am messed up

I admit that I don't have it all together.

I admit that I don't know who I am.

I admit that I am broken.

I admit that I am fighting worthlessness.

But I am not alone.

I have my Savior who Delights in me.

Only He can win this horrendous battle within me.

I know this doesn't seem quite

Joyous or perky

but rather depressing,

but My Mask is off

and I want true Healing.

Will you take off your mask as well?

I have found that true fellowship and companionship

comes when the Masks are off.

When tears fall from our eyes.

when we want no one to see us.

when we are Ashamed.

When we are Real.

So to you,

I come Unmasked.

I would appreciate your prayers.

I have never been so grateful

for the people God has so

Wonderfully and Marvelously placed in my life.

I know it is by no mistake.

as Paul Says,

"I thank God in my rememberance of you."

I am so thankful for you.

In His Healing Love and Grace,

Amy :)