Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Tell the Truth.

"Why do we always say we're fine,
when it's obviously we're lying?
Why don't we ever tell the truth,
what do we got to lose?"
- When The Time Comes, The Classic Crime
Hello my WONDERFUL readers!
I want you to STOP reading this for a moment...
LISTEN to this song...
A DEAR friend of mine,
(she's prolly doing "HAPPY, EXCITING hands... :) )
Introduced me to this BAND
and I am more GRATEFUL that she did
because of THIS moment.
This song has been a product of GOD'S perfect timing.
This past week has been the HARDEST of my life.
One of my friends has been going through a very DIFFICULT time.
As a friend and a person who is very EMPATHETIC and
CARES very much about my friends,
this has been EXTREMELY hard on me.
if you have SEEN me in the past week,
you may have NOTICED I haven't been myself.
This is WHY.
I have come to BELIEVE that
if your INWARD emotions, etc.,
become visible OUTWARDLY,
there is a PROBLEM.
it wasn't until a DEAR friend here
POINTED this out to me
and we came to the CONCLUSION
that this was the CAUSE.
I am NOT blaming my friend.
I feel that blame is IRRELEVANT at this point and pointless.
Though HEALING will take much time for my friend,
and for a WHILE,
I thought it was the SAME for me,
SHARING in their pain and everything.
But the HEALING has begun.
The pain on my part is GONE.
I HURT for my friend
but not nearly as bad and CONSUMING
as it was BEFORE.
I am FREE.
I PRAY that they will be too.
Thank you very much for your PRAYERS.
Thank you for your GUIDANCE.
This whole EXPERIENCE has brought something to my attention.
Why cannot we be REAL?
A SWEET friend of mine here
told me that she had to get READY for something
after BREAKING down,
saying, "I am expected to be PERFECT."
What is this WORLD coming to?
Where we are EXPECTED to wear the MASK?
To HIDE our true selves?
What if we put ourselves OUT there,
What if we ACCEPTED people,
I think this would DRASTICALLY change the world.
People could know the TRUTH,
People could get the HELP they need,
People could LIVE!
I DREAM of this world.
I dream of UNCOVERING masks.
SHOWING people that who they are,
though the world may not ACCEPT them,
DON'T need man's approval
but RATHER have been
WRAPPED in the abundantly loving arms
This is what i DREAM of...
Will you JOIN me as I dream?
Will you help me make it a REALITY?
When you PASS by someone,
and THEY say:
and YOU respond with:
"Hi! How are YOU?"
and they SAY:
"GOOD! and you?"
YOU? you:
Tell them the HONEST truth!
"What have we got to LOSE?"
Thank you for READING :)
This has been on my mind ALOT lately.
THought I would share it with the THREE people
who ACTUALLY read this :)
You all are a BLESSING to my life.
I LOVE you all and
I hope you know that you are LOVED.
DESPITE what it holds.
Amy :)

Friday, December 05, 2008

Nothing without this All

It's been QUITE some time, hasn't it?
what? like two weeks, HUH?
too too LONG
But I haven't seemed to HAVE the time...
FIRST off,
Thanksgiving was WONDERFUL :)
GREAT time with family and friends.
At the SAME time though,
I REALIZED something...
I have places I CALL home and everything.
But when I am AT those places,
I find myself LONGING to be elsewhere.
I have found no CONTENTMENT in where I am in place.
It was quite the DISAPPOINTING realization.
Inside I am still SEARCHING for that one place where I am fully content.
Right now, only ONE place can come to mind.
C. S. Lewis put it quite FITTINGLY:
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."
I have felt very CLOSE to this verse recently,
not necessarily in instance of LOCATION,
but rather an instance of LIFE.
I find myself FOREIGN.
But Christ said I would be as an ALIEN to this world...
I NOW know the feeling...
It was GREAT to see everyone back home,
it was familiar and yet different and COMFORTABLE :)
If ANYONE back home reads this,
First off, THANKS for reading this,
secondly, I am BLESSED to have all of you in my life:)
I missed EVERYONE back here at CBU too.
It was like I left a LIFE back here.
I LOVE these people here,
I feel like God has PLACED them in my life
and they are an EXTREME blessing to me
especially through this VERY difficult semester.
This past week has been the HARDEST week I would say.
From getting LESS than 4 hours of sleep between Sunday and Monday night,
A 6 hour-long trip back to CBU to be to class that SAME morning,
To two papers and friends who have been in PAIN.
The last one really is not a PROBLEM for me
or one that those people should BLAME themselves for.
We did a STRENGTHS test for one of our Freshman classes,
I have the strength of EMPATHY.
What that means is that I CARE and
can practically FEEL
the pain/joy that others FEEL.
Kind of STRANGE, I know.
Its not ANYONE'S fault,
thats just how I'm WIRED.
I haven't found a steady BALANCE yet,
but am WORKING on that.
I know I may have WORRIED some of you,
but this is PRACTICALLY what has been bothering me.
I am blessed with EVERYONE who comes in my life
and not one of those people are in my life by MISTAKE.
Thank you for your ENCOURAGEMENT :)
Please keep in PRAYER myself and those who are in pain.
On a LIGHTER note,
I SURVIVED this week :)
I go HOME in 14 days :)
I also have wonderful FRIENDS both back home and at CBU :)
I don't know where I would be WITHOUT any of you.
I am also grateful for my FAMILY :)
you guys ROCK my socks :)
(yes... I do wear socks...) ;)
I serve a God whose love is ABUNDANT.
I serve a God who is in CONTROL.
I serve a God who UNDERSTANDS.
I serve a God who has a REASON.
I am HIS.
So with ALL that being said,
ALL of that...
so LONG...
TREASURE each breath that you were given for a reason :)
LOVE you all and
THANK you so much for reading
Especially when I write freakin BOOKS like this :)
Amy :)

Sunday, November 23, 2008


Hey Everyone!!!
Here I am
Sitting on my COUCH.
That's right
I know some of you think
that I wasn't going to be home
for Thanksgiving,
But SUPRISE!!!!!
I arrived in Loveland/Fort Collins
today around 7pm!
I actually made my mom CRY!
My brother wouldn't let GO
My sister told EVERYONE.
It made making up stories all worth it :)
For those of you who knew,
Who knew when my mom was in CALIFORNIA
and didn't BREATHE a WORD,
and to everyone else back home who knew
and didn't either :)
you guys are blessings.
It is pretty cold here.
The only downfall is that...
well my luggage got "delayed"
I had a transfer
it didn't.
It should be here by morning.
Good thing I used to live here :)
Hope you all have a wonderful Thanksgiving
and for my fellow classmates,
hope the last two days of school are a breeze :)
Enjoy and treasure the time with your family :)
Its like a twilight zone...
(no not the book/movie
though I really want to go see the movie :))
doo doo doo do doo doo doo doo :)
Soo all of you here in FOCO/<3land,>
I hope to see you soon :)
Enjoy your blessed and purposed day :)
From the twilight zone,
Amy :D

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

My Way From Here

Its been QUITE some time.
Both since I WROTE on here,
(actually its only been a matter of DAYS)
and since one of my favorite artists released a NEW song!
MIKE HIRST is an amazing Indie musician and singer and artist!
It has been quite some TIME since he released a new song,
(not a bad thing, but I LOVE his tunes!)
which he offers for FREE,
as he does with ALL of his songs,
gaining NO PROFIT from his music or fans unless bought on iTunes.
Has written so many BLESSINGS of songs!
He found ME on myspace
and i was like... "ummm nah..." BUT then i heard his music....
Guys CHECK him out!
he's GREAT! :)
He is so HUMBLE in what he does!
Ive TALKED to him a couple of times
and he has PROVEN to be very humble and personable.
all that to be SAID...
His new song, MY WAY FROM HERE,
check it OUT!
he's ALSO on myspace and Facebook.
Thanks for putting up with me and my CRAZED fan RAVINGS.
thanks FAITHIE for the video!
it pretty much MADE my day!
Yay for CANCELLED classes and sleeping in :)
As ALWAYS, thanks for reading this :)
have a wonderful, Blessed, PURPOSED day!
Amy :)

Thursday, November 13, 2008

Thoughts on Today

"LIVE in the Present."
"Today is ALL you have."
"Today is a GIFT, that's why they call it the PRESENT."
ever HEARD of these before?
I SURE have.
I BELIEVE them too.
but another THING.
Do you ever wonder WHY you have today?
WHY have you been GIVEN another day?
I have thought about this before.
I am NOT perfect.
WHY would a PERFECT GOD give me,
another DAY when I would most likely take it for GRANTED?
I am NOT trying to make you depressed.
If I am, my BAD.
There's HOPE.
It's like God said,
"my BELOVED SPECK, I'm not THROUGH with you yet."
Then He gives you your next BREATH.
Amazing, isn't it?
Each Breath, Each Day, Each Moment,
I have had some pretty HARD days.
I've had some pretty UNEVENTFUL days.
I have NEVER had a WASTED day.
Even in the PAIN,
God bestowed His LOVE and PROMISE.
Even in the BOREDOM,
God was BUSY, working in MY LIFE.
Even though I don't always SEE it,
No matter what the day HOLDS,
BLESSED by the hand of GOD.
BLESSED because even in the pain,
so my friend,
thank you for BLESSING MY LIFE and reading this.
Amy :)

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Who I am Becoming...

Hey Everyone!
so about that "I'm not gonna do this everyday" thing...
Okay, not gonna happen.
at least right NOW its not.
I've had alot on my mind lately.
I have realized that I am becoming a person I always hoped I WOULD BE but NEVER thought I actually would be.
Does that make SENSE?
A sweet person I know died a few months ago and that was kinda hard for me.
She was a person i LOOKED up to and a person i HOPED i would be like one day.
I am FAR from the person she is.
But something in me has CHANGED.
I don't know how to explain it.
In me is a LONGING for NOTHING this world can OFFER me.
it is something only my SAVIOR can offer.
I DON'T know what it is that HE is offering ME,
but I know its only something He can give me.
What I do isn't SATISFYING me.
I have no idea what to do but to LOOK up to HIM.
In a way, this is such a RELIEF for me.
I feel like that PERSON I hoped to be is closer.
But I don't want to get a BIG HEAD about it.
It doesn't make SENSE.
but that's just what's been on my MIND alot lately.
Aside from that huge kind-of heaviness,
today was a good day. :)
It was the first 24@CBU event.
It was where it all began for me a year ago.
I got to see UCO preform today.
Way to BELT it!
(I need to buy a CD...)
After that, I was in a very strange mood.
I was insane.
Yep. only way to Explain it.
Well that was my day.
I have a HISTORY Quiz tomorrow.
There Goes my mood...
thanks for reading! :)
Have a great day!
You are a blessing!
Amy :)

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


Hey My Dear Friends!
Hope this finds you well!
Well here it is... My Blog.
No I didn't think I would ever do this.
But hey. Here I am.
Writing my first blog.
This blog isn't going to be a big deal to me.
I'm gonna post some things here and there.
Some thoughts.
But anyways.
Thanks for reading.
Know that you are loved by Him, no matter what!
Have a wonderful day!
Even if its a rough day, God gave it to you, proving you serve a purpose.
Make the most of it :)
Amy :)