Pic Post #1

Long time,

no post.

trust me,

i will post a REAL post

SOOOONN!!

at least,

that's my intention ;) for this post,

i'll just post some pictures ive done recently :)

first off, i miss these people

AAAAA TONNNN!!!

And these people,

i miss these sweet ladies and
I miss her and so many others
but God makes things beautiful

my sister is definitely no exception

dang,

I love Picnik :)

thanks :)

Amy <3

We are the Problem because We aren't the Solution...

Money spent on Swine Flu: $1.5 billion.

Money spent on Darfur Genocide: $0.

Problem: Me.

Solution: Me.

One of my favorite people ever is Jon Foreman. Not only can he bust out some great music that holds great meaning but he also is down to earth and is changing the world.

He has been fasting to raise awareness for the Darfur Genocide that has been going on and yet it still goes on with no effort from us; no effort from our President who said we can't ignore it and has raised awareness for Darfur during his run for the Presidency. Instead, 1.5 billion dollars has gone to the flu and zero dollars has gone to Darfur....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pjSy_-yet9w

Here's something that Jon said in his blog yesterday.

Darfur Fast blog #2, May 11, There's Something Broken with the System
"As a musician, I have a natural aversion to politicians. In fact, I believe in democracy simply because I distrust all politicians equally.

And yet, I have a tremendous amount of faith and belief in humanity. When it comes to folks outside of the power schemes I might even trust people too much. I am ruthlessly idealistic, hopelessly optimistic. I believe the best in people. That's why I have to do something, because I feel that if people knew the truth, they would feel the same as I do. They would feel that something has to be done. They would care and things would change.

President Barack Obama last week requested a $1.5 billion emergency appropriation to deal with a flu outbreak that has killed 3 people in the US. I believe this action was in response to a nation experiencing "what could potentially be the biggest national emergency since Y2K" (genius comparison courtesy of Glenn Phillips.)

An estimated 300,000 folks have already died in Darfur and we do nothing... $0.00. And three people die of the flu and we spend $1.5 billion to figure things out. $1,500,000,000.00

I understand the need for precautionary measures but this feels like reactionary spending when I am reminded of the 2,500,000 people whose lives hang in the balance in displacement camps? What can be done for them? don't tell me nothing.

Obama: "We can't ignore the genocide in Darfur... We have to do everything in our power to make it stop. We have to act. Now."

Nothing? Years and years go by... and still... nothing...

Our national inaction sends the simple message that a whole crowd of Sudanese souls are not worth as much as an American with the flu. "Surely this is not true!" we protest. And yet our actions speak louder than our words.

There's something broken with the system.

We the people of the United States of America... We are the system. We are the media. We are the government. We are the twittering public. We the people of the United States of America... we own this place. We decide who is president. We pick the next American idol. Obama our leader, is in many ways a follower of his people. In a state where the vote of the populous determines the next face of the government, a politician must listen to his/her constituents to remain in power. I believe nothing was done for Darfur because Obama doesn't think the public cares about Darfur.

Perhaps we can blame the media- perhaps the public doesn't care because they are uninformed, or at least under-informed? Yes, but in many ways "the news" is simply a vendor trying to sell a product, we tell them (with our viewing, purchasing power) what product sells. Britney, Brangelina, or Bosnia. we choose the news.

And now for the staggering fact: you and I are the problem and the solution."

We are the problem and we are the solution. Only we can stop this with the help of Christ at our side. We have been the problem because we haven't been the Solution. Lets be the solution.

Thanks for reading...

More to come :)

Amy <3

Second Time, Deep Penetration...

I found this while I was cleaning out my room...

God has a way of making the things that didn't penetrate me when I first received them penetrate me the second time...

He's awesome like that :)

I don't know where this came from.

It's just a tiny slip of paper, a copy of a book.

Yet its words are needed.

"God has created me to do him some definite service; he has committed some work to me which he has not committed to another. I have my mission- I never may know it in this life, but I shall be told it in the next. Somehow I am necessary for his purposes, as necessary in my place as an Archangel in his- if, indeed, I fail, he can raise another, as he could make the stones children of Abraham. Yet I have a part in this great work; I am a link in a chain, a bond of connection between persons. He has not created me for naught. I shall do good, I shall do his work; I shall be an angel of peace, a preacher of truth in my own place, while not intending it, if I do but keep his commandments and serve him in my calling.

"Therefore I will trust him. Whatever, wherever I am, I can never be thrown away. If I am in sickness, my sickness may serve him; in perplexity, my perplexity may serve him; if I am in sorrow, my sorrow may serve him. My sickness, or perplexity, or sorrow may be necessary causes of some great end, which is quite beyond us. He does nothing in vain; he may prolong my life, he may shorten it; he knows what he is about, he may take away my friends, he may throw me among strangers, he may make me feel desolate, make my spirits sink, hide the future from me- still he knows what he is about.

- Venerable John Henry Newman"

I'm Goin' Home... :)

So after that last post, I figured I should at least satisfy the happy part of me. What can I say, I am quite torn these days. I guess that's just how it is when you don't know where to call home anymore.

I am super excited to see my friends and family back home :)

I seriously cannot believe that it has been almost 4 MONTHS since I last saw them! By the Grace of God, I enjoyed this semester so much that it went by so fast!

I can't wait for...

hanging out with my sister,

Mom's cooking,

My brother's adorable-ness,

Talking with my Dad,

DRIVING,

Spending time with friends,

Getting involved in my church,

Enjoy home more,

have that Marshmallow-roasting, Dancing party at the mall,

Beading Sessions,

Coffee with friends,

Walks,

Hopefully go to Mexico,

Sitting on my porch and doing art,

Learning Guitar better,

Working a job that has a deeper purpose,

Write,

and Falling in love with my Savior more

and overcoming and coming to terms with some things in my life.

Oh, and of course, being able to be me :)

Oh yes, I cannot wait :)

i will be home tomorrow... strange... (by tomorrow, I mean Sunday...)

*deep Breath*...

Here we Go! :)

Amy <3

Goodbyes and See-You-Laters... I hate that.

Well, Here I am...

The last post I will make from this room.

I leave CBU by 2pm tomorrow...

When I return, if I do, is unknown.



I've said "Goodbye".

I hate "goodbyes".

I've said "See You Later" in hopes that maybe, just maybe it will be true.

I hate "see you laters".

I don't know what to say anymore to those that I leave and are left by.

It hasn't hit yet.

But when it does, it will be painful.

Today I met someone and turned around and said Goodbye.

I keep meeting people; still.

I met a dear friend just a couple of weeks ago.

I said goodbye to her too.

I hate meeting people knowing that you have to say goodbye.



I hate it when people that are dear to me are shocked that I may not be coming back.

Even as I said goodbye to some people,

they didn't know up until then that I wasn't going to be able (at this point) to return.

I hate that.

I hate it when they seem to take it hard after I have somehow come to terms with it in some way.



I hate not knowing.

I told a friend of mine:

"I wish I could just take a peek at his plans"

It would make things easier; I think.



But here I type.

With most of my things packed away.

I can't wait to see my family and friends again.

But this year has changed my life.

I really hope that I will get to see these people and experience this again...

Goodbyes and See You Laters... I hate that.



Thanks for reading...



Amy <3