I'm sorry friends.
i haven't been much of a blogger lately.
Can't really say I've been busy though.
I don't really know why.
I think apathy,
which is something i despise,
has gotten ahold of me.
So in the past couple of weeks,
ive been dealt several thorns.
thorns by mental and medical means,
thorns by meaningful friendships,
and thorns by just me.
they rip at me and tear me apart
at times where i just can't seem to bear it.
my family is worried about me,
i'm worried about me,
and i'm worried about the things
that are tearing at me.
and each night,
if i'm not being too torn,
i read my bible or devotional.
i know i should read it
when i'm too torn because i am too torn
but i don't.
i feel emotionally worn down at that point.
even though i haven't been as faithful as i should be,
God uses those times to be beautiful moments.
each moment is meaningful
and helpful in my healing and hurt.
these are the promises by God that I have clung to:
1. Jer. 1:5- Before you were born I set you apart.
2. Jer. 29:11- I know the plans I have for you...
Plans to prosper you and not harm you,
plans to give you a hope and a future.
3. Jer. 29:13- You will seek me and you will find me,
when you seek me with all of your heart.
4. Jer. 29:14- I will be found by you.
5. Jer. 30:11a- I am with you and I will save you.
6. Jer. 31:3-4- I have loved you with an everlasting love...
I will build you up again.
7. Jer. 31:13- I will turn their mourning into gladness,
I will give them comfort and joy
instead of sorrow.
8. Jer. 31:20- My heart yearns for [her],
I have great compassion for [her].
9. Each day is another chance.
10. When it comes to idols vs. God,
Idols are immovable.
But people continue to go to God
because HE moves and
has the might to change our circumstances
and love us back.
OUR GOD MOVES.
11. Josh. 1:3- I will give you every place where you set your foot, I promise.
12. 2 Cor. 12:9- My Grace is sufficient for you.
that last one got me tonight.
God's grace is greater than our need.
its like a granary to feed a hungry mouse.
or a river to quench the thirst of a fish.
or the air in the atmosphere being enough to give us breath.
His grace is greater than even my deepest of needs,
emotional, mental, spiritual, physical.
keep me in your prayers.
thanks for reading :)
Amy <3
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ps. is it slightly pathetic to be excited for my classes this next semester?
even though i will be with no one i know;
in a public atmosphere again,
after 7 years
and with a crazy schedule with no room to work?
answer: YES
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